Sheershak Kya Doon?

Raat ke sadhe teen baje hain.....aamtaur par ise subah ka waqt maana jaata hai par ab to subah hi raat si lagti hai aur raat ek din. Jindagi me jab andhere ka aisa aalam ho to din kaatna bhi bada mushkil ho jaata hai-agar apni aankhein khole rakho tab. Agar aankhein moonde raho to fir kya raat aur kya din. Par is aankh ne hi majboor kar diya hai baar baar ki apne jhoothe anand ke bulbule ko todata hoon aur bahar nikal aata hoon yatharth ke banjar me! Jahan main khada hoon akela aur meri raah mujhe pukaarti hai- haan wahi raah jise main kuchh pag ka saath deta hoon, use poori ummeed bandhata hoon ki teri sooni kokh ko main us manjil tak pahunch safalta se bhar doonga. Uski aashaayein bhi us pagli birhan ki tarah hai- bas ek hi aahat me jag jaati hai. Par kahan, bas usake chand kadmo.n ko apnaata hoon aur fir usi andhkaar ke jeevan me apna sukh-chain dhoondhane chala jaata hoon. Kya karoon chaaro.n or isi ka samrajya hai, sab andhkaar ke pujaari hi hain. Ek akela main kab tak prakash ka adarsh liye ghoomta firoo.n! Darasal utani taaqat hai hi nahi mujhme ki main is andhkaar ki duniya se khud ko bacha sakoo.n. Taaqat nahi hai, fir bhi us raah ki kokh se safalta ke janm ke sapne dekhta hoon- sirf isliye ki dil me hausale buland hain- koi hai kahin bheetar jo jaane anjaane aawaaj laga deta hai aur fir us sapne ke bina zindagi dikhati hi nahi. Fir main jag jaata hoon- aankhon ka bhaan ho aata hai, aur ye jagaran thaharta hai to main likhta hoon. Par fir agali subah jab uthoonga to dopahri jaa chuki hogi aur meri aankhein bhi- fir wahi andhkaar ka jeevan, fir wahi kshanik sukh ki bhookh. Fir main apne us dil ki dhadkan band kar doonga jisame mere maa-baap, bhai-bahan ka pyaar basa hai. Fir main apane us man ko maar doonga jo ramji ki sumiran me dubota hai. Main kamjor hoon aur main kya har insaan kamjori ki ek murat hai aur jeevan bhar wah isi yatn me laga rahta hai ki kis tarah wo majboot ho. Is sangharsh ka koi ant nahi. Aur agar ye sangharsh na ho to fir prakash aur andhkaar ka dvand hi na rah jaaye, bas shwet hi ho jeevan shyam ka ansh hi na ho. Par jaise hi ye sangharsh band ho jaata hai maano jindagi ruk jaati hai. Agli baar fir jab main jagta hoon, paanch kadam peechhe se mujhe zindagi shuru karni padti hai. Is sangharsh ki den ye shabd- inhi ka aasra hai ki kal jab main aankhein kholoon, chaahe dopahri ho ya saanjh ho, meri aankhein wastutah khuli ho.n.